A Warrior Spirit

Over the past couple weeks something has been stirring inside me. The need for change.
After studying the life of David I was both convicted and inspired. After going through Samuel and learning of David we have looked at Psalms and studied Proverbs and Song of Solomon. Don't worry I won't go into detail with Song of Solomon.
After studying Samuel and learning what a great man of God David was, seeing his Psalms which he cried out to God and the wisdom of Solomon in Proverbs I was convicted.
Am I truly doing enough?
Am I honestly seeking God as much as I could?
Do I honestly love the Lord with all my heart?
The answer to these questions is no. I think that as humans we go through seasons, where one moment we can be on fire for God and the next we can be dragging our feet hoping for it all to end. It is so frustrating for me at times to look inward and see the ugly mess that I truly am. I've realized this week, once again, that I need more of God in my life. David had it figured out. Most of the time. He loved God and he placed his confidence in God. It was in God that David was able to live and do the great things that he did. David knew this and he knew who he was in God, he knew he was nothing without God and that for him to survive he needed to have God in his life. He made it his life to seek God and not only battle physical enemies but also spiritual ones that could have brought him away from God.
I need more of that in my life. More of that fighting spirit within me to protect my relationship with God and to fight for righteousness in my own life. I need to be a man after God's own heart and I need to fight to get their.

The life and times of David.

Saying I learned a lot last week is an understatement. Saying that David blew my mind last week would be closer to the truth.

Last week we studied Ruth and Samuel and let me tell you that David came alive in a whole new way. I always knew that he was a man after Gods own heart but to see him and Saul together and to study the differences! Man! I learned a lot about them and myself as well.

Saul was afraid, he did not want God's calling for his life and he proved it by hiding. But even though Saul was chosen and had all the outer signs of a leader, like the spirit of God, bravery, courage, warrior etc., even though he had these qualities he did not trust in God the way he should have. And that was his downfall. He tried to control the outcome using his own sources instead of trusting God and letting Him use His heavenly sources.

Now if you compare Saul with David you will see that David accepted his calling, he never hid from it. But just because he accepted it doesn't mean he got it right away. He waited for Gods timing to bring his calling about. David never tried to control the outcome of a situation or he never tried to force Gods plan into being. He simply waited for Gods timing and trusted that God would show him when it was time and what he should do.

How often do I try to put Gods plan into action, or what I think His plan is into action using my own strength when what I should really be doing is trusting, waiting and listening for God to reveal to me what He wants me to do? I've learned more of what it truly means to wait and trust on the Lord. My prayer is that the Lord will give me the strength to walk it out.